burnout
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“I was surviving, not living”
📓 Thursday, May 14, 2026 — 7:25 p.m. 💬 Question What’s a moment where you realized you were surviving… but not really living? ⸻ I am sitting in my dimly lit studio. Only the standing light to my right on. Set to 20%. ⸻ Alien videos on YouTube. Si No Te Hubieras Ido by Maná… Continue reading
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“I stopped today… and it felt strange”
📓 Sunday, March 29, 2026 — 3:56 p.m. I’m sitting in my van in front of a Target, under the shade. Not moving. Not rushing. That’s not normal for me. I’m tired. My eyes feel warm. Sleep’s been off this week. Sometimes it feels like the thoughts hit me in my sleep—like Freddy Krueger—pulling me… Continue reading
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“Offloading Into the Cloud”
Today I hit the wall again—so I offloaded the loop into the cloud: writing, a movie, and a small moment of relief before sleep. Continue reading