Journal
Raw reflections. Emotional check-ins.
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“I just wanted to go to the reading section”
I never really understood the point of school back then. What I remember most is the reading corner. Bean bags. Kid books. A quiet little area where I just wanted to exist. Continue reading
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“I Am Becoming Conscious of Now”
For years I lived in pressure, fear, and survival mode. Now I think I’m finally learning how to notice life while it’s happening. Continue reading
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“Maybe fragments are enough sometimes.”
📓 May 21, 2026 — 10:36 a.m. Okay, I am trying to relax and sit here in my studio. I am going to reminisce about a moment in my past because I tend to always attack sadness head on. Maybe too often. ⸻ Back somewhere between 2009 and 2012, I was doing late-night deliveries in… Continue reading
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“Thriller Sounds Different Now”
📰 Monday, June 1, 2026 — 8:41 a.m. Morning world. Los Angeles. I feel good today. That sounds simple. But there was a time when it wasn’t. There was a time when I carried a quiet desperation around with me. For those who feel shitty sometimes, I feel you. I’ve been there. ⸻ Simba, my… Continue reading
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“I’ve gotten used to wanting to force everything”
I spent years trying to force everything—success, healing, art, meaning. Now I’m beginning to wonder if flow is something you stop interrupting. Continue reading
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“It’s not the accident. It’s the waiting.”
Sometimes the hardest part isn’t the event itself. It’s the waiting, the stress, and the feeling that life keeps calling before you’ve had a chance to rest. Continue reading
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“The sketches aren’t finished. Neither am I.”
I sat down with my reMarkable Pro and started writing by hand again. The sketches weren’t finished—and honestly, neither am I. Continue reading
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“I think I’m finally coming online”
I spent years assuming I was built to be rejected. Looking back now, I realize my self-image was far harsher than reality. Continue reading
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“I was surviving, not living”
📓 Thursday, May 14, 2026 — 7:25 p.m. 💬 Question What’s a moment where you realized you were surviving… but not really living? ⸻ I am sitting in my dimly lit studio. Only the standing light to my right on. Set to 20%. ⸻ Alien videos on YouTube. Si No Te Hubieras Ido by Maná… Continue reading
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“I never realized I didn’t know how to love myself”
📓 Thursday, May 14, 2026 — 5:37 p.m. 💬 Question What’s a moment where you realized someone loved you… but didn’t really know how to show it correctly? ⸻ I’ve tried in the past to write in a way that sounded entertaining enough to read. Because I never saw myself as a “real writer.” ⸻… Continue reading