Journal
Raw reflections. Emotional check-ins.
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“I’ve done everything… and I still feel like a failure”
You can change your life on paper… and still feel like the same person inside. Continue reading
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“I finally listened”
I thought I needed more effort. Turns out, I just needed to listen—and do something simple every day. Continue reading
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“I stopped trying to prove I was smart”
I used to try to prove I was smart. Now I’m more interested in seeing how people—and myself—actually work. Continue reading
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“She asked me out… and I said no”
She asked me out. I said no. Not because I didn’t want to—but because I didn’t believe she could actually want me. Continue reading
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“What I saw at a liquor store made me think about this”
A simple moment turned into a reflection on behavior, discipline, and what happens when a community decides to build something real. Continue reading
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“A rock taught me something about art”
A strange character in Project Hail Mary made me rethink art, creativity, and how I’ve been approaching my own life. Continue reading
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“I Saw Lord of the Rings in Theaters. I Also Slept Through It.”
I was there for cinematic history. I bought the tickets, sat in the theater, and somehow slept through most of it. Continue reading
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“I stopped today… and it felt strange”
📓 Sunday, March 29, 2026 — 3:56 p.m. I’m sitting in my van in front of a Target, under the shade. Not moving. Not rushing. That’s not normal for me. I’m tired. My eyes feel warm. Sleep’s been off this week. Sometimes it feels like the thoughts hit me in my sleep—like Freddy Krueger—pulling me… Continue reading
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“Better. Not Perfect.”
📓 Sunday, March 1, 2026 — 7:11 p.m. Forgetting how you used to be. But never disrespect yourself for that version you once thought was “bad.” It was just a version learning in the dark. 2019. CSULB. Sitting in the waiting room for my first session with the school psychologist. The room was full. Different… Continue reading
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“What My Cat Taught Me About Self-Judgment”
📓 Wednesday, February 25, 2026 — 10:01 p.m.Failure has haunted me. It’s been the answer to a question I never asked. Today I took my cat to the veterinarian. He has dealt with feline herpes, and I made the decision to take him off his medication. He seemed fine to me, so I made what… Continue reading