life
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“The Laptop That Broke My Wallet.”
Every dent I avoided became another dream I worked on. The most expensive purchase I’ve ever made is my MacBook Pro — the one I bought back in 2022 after graduating from Cal State Long Beach. Man, Apple loves to drop the hammer on those prices. But that’s why I take care of this thing… Continue reading
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“Many Men, One Ice Cart”
A quiet night. An ice cart. 50 Cent’s bodyguard yelling at me. Didn’t end how he expected. Follow me on X: @punisherpapi · IG: @punisherpapi Back when I worked as a houseman at a hotel in Beverly Hills, every night brought something different. Celebrities, chaos, weird little moments that stuck. This one night, I was out by the… Continue reading
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“Trust in Fur and Silence”
I have a little orange cat named Simba. It’s funny — he just eats, sleeps, and brings me his toy once in a while when he wants to play. He walks outside with his little constellation harness, like he knows he’s a small explorer mapping his own stars. He doesn’t talk. I don’t talk meow.… Continue reading
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“Every Shade of Purple”
A quick trip to help housekeeping turned into a purple fever dream — the night I stepped into Prince’s world. Follow me on X: @punisherpapi · IG: @punisherpapi I used to work in a hotel in Beverly Hills back when I was twenty-two. I was a houseman. Some of the stories from that place and time I’ll eventually… Continue reading
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The Nightmare That Wouldn’t End
Follow me on X: @punisherpapi · IG: @punisherpapi When I was about fifteen years old, living in the front house, I had a nightmare one night that I still remember like it happened yesterday. It was crazy… thinking back I can see it in my mind — its blackness impenetrable. The night started normal — I went to… Continue reading
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“What I Listen to When the World Goes Quiet.”
One of my favorite podcasts right now is The Shawn Ryan Show. He brings on everyone—hackers, ex-military, intelligence guys—and lets them speak like human beings, not headlines. There was one guest, an ex-soldier, who told a story that hit me hard. He said he and a teammate were crossing the street on deployment when they saw… Continue reading
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“Before the Noise.”
The way I manage screen time for myself is, I guess — I don’t know — I guess you could call it waking up every day at 6 a.m., before the noise. I make myself some coffee. Grind the beans. Let the smell fill the room. Then I just sit in my chair with the… Continue reading
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“Fuck the Routine”
Follow me on X: @punisherpapi · IG: @punisherpapi I’m sitting here again — watching TV, typing, half-listening to Shawn Ryan talk about leaks and influencer payouts meant to steer Americans in different directions. Could it be true? Maybe. Who knows. It’s fun to wonder. Simba’s behind me, stretched across my headrest, waiting for our nightly walk — patient… Continue reading
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“Waiting on the Curb”
I think there’s never enough time. Even when you’re young, you think there will always be more — but there won’t. The time you’re given is special because it gives importance to everything. Every second matters. Every moment matters. Some people spend too much of it sitting on the curb, drinking a Corona, waiting for life to… Continue reading
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The Good Neighbor Holiday
If I could invent a holiday, I’d call it The Good Neighbor Holiday. Especially here in Los Angeles, most of us don’t really know our neighbors anymore. We live right next to each other but move like ghosts — polite nods, no real connection. Back in Mexico, my family tells me it’s different. They’ll close off… Continue reading