Prompt: If you met yourself for the very first time todayā¦ what would you misunderstand about yourself?
July 31, 2026 ā 11:21 p.m.
Iām walking on a cold night.
Itās been a hotā¦
hot week.
Sizzling.
Now Iām walking through a cold night.
Alone.
Golden light from the streetlights.
I am not a happy person.
I look very happy.
Iām jovial.
I joke.
Iām funny.
I have a lot of personality.
But internallyā¦
I feel dead.
Iām on default.
For the outer worldā¦
and for the inner worldā¦
I am dead.
I think if I met myself as a strangerā¦
Iād think,
āHeās a funny guy.ā
I would misunderstand the whole thing.
Iād thinkā¦
That person is really smart.
He has a lot of personality.
He speaks well.
He must have his life together.
Godā¦
I wish I were like him.
I wish I had my life together like him.
Iām in my 40sā¦
and yetā¦
I donāt feel like my life is together at all.
He seems peaceful.
Smooth.
Charismatic.
Comfortable in his own skin.
Why canāt I be like that?
The reality isā¦
I do all of that because Iām trying to give myself hope.
Iām always looking for somethingā¦
anythingā¦
that might lead me toward a better life.
Iāve made a lot of bad decisions.
Cleaning up that messā¦
wellā¦
itās not that easy.
But I think thatās what Iād misunderstand the most.
Iād thinkā¦
āHe has it together.ā
And the truth isā¦
Iām still trying to figure it out.
Iād probably also thinkā¦
He seems like heād be cool to hang out with.
Thatās all Iāve got, man.
Enjoy your nightā¦
your dayā¦
your morningā¦
wherever you are in the world.
And thank youā¦
for giving enough of a damn to read anything I write.
ā Enjoy your cup of coffee.
Reader Question
If someone met you for the first time today, what do you think theyād completely misunderstand about you?
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