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Written and illustrated by Roberto Sánchez
I didn’t even want to watch this film.
I was somewhere in South Central, sitting in my van, eating Pollo Loco on the side of the street.
Just trying to take a break.
Scrolling through my phone.
Amazon had it for $20.
I said, what the fuck.
Truth is, when I’m stressed or a little depressed, I like buying movies.
Collecting them.
Sometimes that’s the entertainment.
Sometimes it’s the escape.
So I hit buy.
A few days later, it came in.
4K Blu-ray.
Then I watched it.
And I loved it.
That surprised me.
Because on paper, it shouldn’t work.
Hutch Mansell.
Bob Odenkirk.
Didn’t feel like an action movie.
But what hit me wasn’t the action.
It was the routine.
Wake up.
Go to work.
Come home.
Repeat.
Not the life he chose.
The life he had to live to survive.
People see a man like Hutch and think he’s weak.
Like he won’t stand up for himself.
But it’s not that.
It’s that he doesn’t want to become something that would take him away from his family.
He loves them.
And sometimes loving them means suppressing the part of you that makes you feel alive.
That’s the part that hit me.
Not the fights.
That quiet tension.
Wanting to be a family man…
but slowly feeling like you’re disappearing inside your own life.
Until one day—
you just can’t do it anymore.
Most people think being “normal” means safety.
But safety from what?
From living a life no one approves of?
I’m starting to think it’s the opposite.
You don’t need the world to approve your life.
You need to approve it yourself.
Because this—
whatever this is—
it’s your journey.
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What part of your life are you living… because you have to, not because you chose it?
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