📰 June 8, 2026 — 8:34 a.m.
I’ve been feeling nervous this whole week.
I don’t really know why.
A nervous system thing, I guess.
I woke up today and still felt uneasy.
But then I thought:
You’ve got things to do.
Focus on the things to do.
So this is one of them.
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The prompt asks:
What is one way you have grown this year?
I was thinking about that yesterday while doing deliveries.
And I noticed something.
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I have a habit.
A pretty consistent one.
Whenever I improve in one area of my life, I immediately start looking for another area where I’m failing.
It’s almost automatic.
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Remove debt.
Find another problem.
Lose weight.
Find another problem.
Make progress.
Find another problem.
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Yesterday my brain was doing its usual thing.
You suck.
Your life sucks.
Everything sucks.
A dumbass.
Then I caught it.
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I thought:
Wait.
I’ve seen this before.
This is a pattern.
I’m still me.
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But this is a pattern.
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So I started asking:
What can I actually do about it?
That’s when I landed on a word.
Probability.
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Nothing in life is guaranteed.
Not weight loss.
Not money.
Not art.
Not relationships.
Not success.
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But some actions increase the probability.
That’s different.
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Going for a walk increases the probability.
Saving money increases the probability.
Writing increases the probability.
Drawing increases the probability.
Showing up increases the probability.
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It doesn’t guarantee anything.
But it’s a lot better than sitting there repeating:
“I suck.”
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Last night I went to see the film Obsession.
I went alone.
In a weird way it felt social.
Not because I talked to anyone.
Because I was sitting in a room full of strangers sharing an experience.
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For a couple of hours I wasn’t at home.
I wasn’t working.
I wasn’t writing.
I wasn’t trying to draw.
I was just there.
A man sitting in a room full of people he didn’t know.
Watching a film.
Let’s see what happens.
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Maybe that’s how I’ve grown.
Not by becoming more confident.
Not by becoming fearless.
By learning to think less in guarantees and more in probabilities.
And giving myself a better chance.
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