August 8, 2026 ā 8:23 a.m.
Woken by a cat named Simbaā¦
Orange furball.
Meow, meowā¦feed me, motherfucker.
6 a.m. without miss.
How does he know the time without knowing the time?
Mysteries of the universeā¦
So I fed him and went back to bed.
I woke up about 40 minutes ago. Still a bit sleepyā¦but I slept the whole night like a rock.
āRoberto, your A/C dripped water when you turned it onā¦it made a weird noise. Be careful because it can make false contact and start a fire.ā
That was my father this morning.
Growing up, I was locked in my thoughts of insecurityā¦
Youāre too short.
Your hair stands up too much at the top of your head.
You mumble too much when you get nervous.
Youāre not smart enough to carry conversations with big words.
Constant talking in my head about nothing that could help me take action.
Thoughts unmanaged.
Thoughts cannot change just by thinking positive.
At least not with me.
I tried.
Stand in front of the mirrorā¦
You can do this.
You are smart.
Blah, blahā¦
Going back to school in 2016, I learned that I wasnāt bad at school because I couldnāt learn.
I wasnāt good at school because I didnāt stay engaged.
Why not?
Wellā¦
The subject is boring.
Itās being presented too academically.
Orā¦
I donāt get it.
So I began by answering those questions and then taking action.
I started reading the books for class on my own and taking notes. Then doing my own research online.
Going to office hours with professors with my own questions from their notes and what I had readā¦
and having them break it down for me a bit more.
Eventually, that led to straight Aās at CSULB for a couple of semesters straight.
So now I keep using a similar methodā¦
Problem.
Research it.
Answer the question.
Begin to apply action.
Modify as I go.
And the voiceā¦
the inner voiceā¦
I listen to it still.
But Iāve learned to unattach from it.
I want to experience life, not experience thinking about it.
So uncertainty is there.
But so is anger.
Fear.
Etc.
And none of those have to get in the way of me enjoying a movieā¦
or laughing at myself for tripping while merely walking.
Thatās all I got today.
Morning, everyone.
Enjoy your day.
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š Reader Question
What thought keeps showing up in your headāand what changed when you stopped treating it like an instruction?
š Stay in the Garage
When I write something newāor finish a drawing, a Street Cinema piece, or a Hood ChronicleāIāll send it your way.
Thereās no schedule.
Youāll just hear from me whenever something is ready to leave the garage.
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