📰 June 9, 2026 – 7:39 a.m.
Sitting with a laptop on my lap.
The Kindle-gray sky is gone.
Blue sky now.
Let there be color.
Simba, the orange furball, is resting at his window.
My coffee alarm just sounded.
Coffee is finished brewing.
I’m looking at my to-do list for the day.
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How do I stop feeling stuck?
Why do I procrastinate?
I’ve asked myself those questions a lot.
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A few years ago, during a period where I felt completely lost, I started going to church once a week.
Not for a sermon.
Not to talk to a priest.
Not because I had some grand religious revelation.
I was looking for guidance.
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It sounds strange now.
I would walk in.
Turn off my phone.
Take off my hat.
Sit down.
Pray.
Then eventually I’d stop praying and just sit there.
Eyes closed.
Quiet.
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Looking back, I think I was resetting.
Not my life.
My noise.
The noise we all carry around.
The noise that follows us everywhere.
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After a while I started journaling.
Time stamping my thoughts throughout the day.
Writing down observations.
Writing down frustrations.
Writing down ideas.
Writing down things that made no sense.
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Something strange happened.
The more I wrote, the more I could see what I was thinking.
The more I could see what I was thinking, the more I started noticing patterns.
And the more patterns I noticed, the more I realized I wasn’t as stuck as I thought.
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I lost weight.
I started saving money.
I started writing consistently.
I started drawing again.
Now I’m trying to become a paid artist.
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But I noticed something else.
Every time I succeeded at one thing, I immediately reminded myself of something I hadn’t done.
Something I wasn’t.
Some reason I wasn’t good enough yet.
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That was a pattern too.
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Now I think differently.
Not in guarantees.
In probabilities.
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If I give myself enough reps, there is a probability that opportunity appears.
Not a guarantee.
A chance.
And a chance is a lot better than standing still.
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Maybe that’s what I’ve been learning.
Not how to be perfect.
Not how to eliminate fear.
Not how to know the future.
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Just how to become good enough.
And then give myself another rep.
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