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📓 Friday, November 14, 2025 — 9:34 p.m.
Still sick tonight.
Still coughing… sometimes that shit hurts.
I was thinking earlier about loops — growing up wondering if anything I’m doing is any good at all.
While the shower steam filled the bathroom, I was decompressing — just occupying my mind with thoughts.
Anything to deal with this damn cough.
Anything to get away from this crazy-ass coughing.
Outside it’s raining pretty good — raining dogs and cats — and the orange feline beast, Simba, is walking around me like he’s running laps on some imaginary track.
I’m trying to type something.
So now I’ve learned a phrase: “pause.”
When shit makes me overthink, I’m gonna hit that pause.
Just walk away from whatever starts pulling me into the loop.
Tonight, while I’m coughing, the pause actually helped.
Coughing gives you no choice but to slow down anyway.
At the end of the day, if life is a simulation, then maybe the best thing we can do is hit “pause” when shit gets too heavy.
So tonight I’ll pause right here —
and see if I can sleep for longer than 3 hours…
or lose a lung.
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