“You see this cat?
I love it more than I love you.
Goodbye.”
That’s what she told me when she left.
For someone else.
A man with a wife and kids.
At that time, I was already in debt.
Student loans.
Credit cards.
Trying to fix my life by going back to school after failing classes.
And even after all that…
I still felt stuck.
Then last November, I went to the doctor.
He looked at me and said:
“You’re going to have a heart attack one day… and you won’t even feel it.”
Fatty liver.
206 pounds at 5’7”.
He told me:
“Give me your hand.
What fits in your hand… that’s what you eat.”
That was it.
Today?
I weigh 168.9.
No credit card debt.
No loans.
Bachelor’s degree from Cal State Long Beach.
Money saved.
And somehow…
I still feel stuck.
But something changed.
Not outside.
Inside.
I stopped believing everything I think.
Because my thoughts?
They’ll tell me:
“You’re behind.”
“You’re not where you should be.”
“You’re stuck.”
And if I listen…
I stay there.
So now I do something different.
If I think:
“I should do this…”
I do it.
Not tomorrow.
Not later.
Now.
That’s the biggest change.
Not that life got easier.
But that I stopped negotiating with myself.
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